I am calling today a write-off, refusing to properly start the day at all, cancelling it. I’m laid in bed, have been all day, and I don’t plan on that changing! I’ve barely eaten, barely moved, barely interacted. The light of day has not broken, darkness has remained, my curtains have stayed fully closed. Today has been difficult, a bad day, and I’m not afraid to admit that I’m fighting a battle that doesn’t seem to have an end, but I will not be defeated..
I barely slept last night, woke up three or four times for extended periods of time, and just laid. I woke up this morning with a headache, still tired as my anxious mind whirled away, and I just accepted the day as a right-off – ventured as far as the kitchen to fetch some snacks, my telly went on, my feel-good programmes followed. Today was a bad day, I just had to accept it..
Unlike our physical wellbeing, we are all guilty of forgetting about our mental health – as symptoms hide away, never fully disappearing for good, but often rearing their head when we least expect. Quitting the day for the sake our mental health can be a difficult choice, but it’s most definitely allowed, and socially, should be encouraged! We wouldn’t be afraid to call in sick to work with nausea or flu, yet we choose to battle through a bad day of depression and anxiety, and for the sake of what, and why?
I personally give you permission to have a day off – if your anxiety is kicking your butt today, you’re on the verge of a panic attack, or struggling for absolutely any other reason, do not feel as though you need to push yourself to the edge of self-destruct! You should always be your own number one priority, you should always put yourself first..
I often find it’s important to take some time away from it all by coming off social media, having a candlelit bath, or taking a moment with a hot drink to read! I personally love a good self-care routine and enjoy cleaning, my room or just a small area of it – I love the accomplished feeling you get when looking back at it, everything neat and organised. Whatever it may be that makes you feel a little more ‘you’, focus on yourself and indulge in it..
As a society, we need to learn that forcing yourself to work through physical or mental illness, is not acceptable, and not something that we have to live with – we don’t have to be okay every single day, it’s okay to have some time away, we’re allowed a day off for the sake of ourselves! We also need to learn that cancelling a day isn’t synonymous with defeat – a day, week, month off, doesn’t mean that you’ve lost – it means that you are working towards a better you, and I have every faith that you will achieve it!
What tips would you give to someone having a bad mental health day? What do you do to make yourself feel a little more ‘you’?